The next step

I trigger tonight for my egg retrieval on Saturday. It's funny because a year ago I never would have thought that I would be at this stage. I was so convinced that I wouldn't have to do IVF and now I'm here doing it (most of the way done with it) and it still feels so surreal. On the one hand I feel so excited and anxious because I could be pregnant in a few weeks and on the other hand I couldn't. I mean we've been focusing so hard on just getting through the meds and just seeing what's brewing that I've sort of blocked out the thought of the end goal being getting pregnant. While this seems odd, I think it has been sort of a slef-preservation mode thing. Now I am face to face with the pregnant or not conflict. It's been a nice confidence boost to respond well to the BCP's and then the lupron and then the stims and now I feel so worried that it will all just be a big let down.

I guess only time will tell. Anyway there are still a few more hurdles to leap over before we get to the pregnant or not post so we'll just have to see.