Comfortably numb

After testing yesterday, I can't get it out of my head that it was just the trigger. But everything I've read says that you should average about 1000 units per day to exit your system. So my 5000 unit shot would have been out a week ago. You would think I would be a nervous wreck about all of this, but in a way I am, as the title suggests, comfortably numb. I haven't told Jamie and in a lot of ways I feel like a horrible wife. I should be happy right?? But now I'm just worried that it's not for real. Again, just because I've felt like that for so long doesn't mean that this won't work now. I want to go test right now, but then I want to test tomorrow morning. I went for a beta today but they don't call. And I keep devising these wild scenarios of why they would call. Maybe my betas are so high already that they just want to call today and let me know. I mean how can they have that information in front of them and not want to call the patient. I can see them all dancing around a table full of results popping a bottle of champagne and NOT CALLING!!!!!!! I know they aren't doing that, but I just need to know.