I don't feel pregnant

It's funny because the day I got a BFP on the HPT I was sick to my stomach (possibly nerves) but now not much. I mean I am tired which I know is a symptom and I know my beta was good therefore I KNOW I AM PREGNANT, but I woke up this morning and kind of forgot that I was. I know that sounds crazy, but I think I've finally figured out my "comfortably numb" feeling: I was owed something. I got pregnant and saw a heartbeat and got all excited just to have it taken away from me and from that moment on I was owed something. This sounds even crazier, but through this whole thing I've been envisioning that I would get pregnant so many times that now that it's here it's just like FINALLY and IT'S ABOUT TIME. I find that I can't get too excited though either because I feel like all of my pregnancy innocence is gone. I've been here before and it didn't go so well. I really have to force myself to remember that this will be different. And that's the truth; I do feel differently about this pregnancy. I just feel like this has to work; this will work.