Our little black spot

We had our first ultrasound on Friday August 29th and we got to see our one little black spot. I am so excited and scared. I thought the u/s would calm my nerves a little bit but not so much. It just brings back all of those emotions of having seen my first baby on his last u/s. I'm trying so hard to separate the two experiences but it's harder than I thought. I just don't feel as connected as I know I should. I've been repeating the mantras over and over again and they do help, especially the "my past does not dictate my future" one. I'm trying to focus on the advice Dr. Tigner gave me that "hey this could actually work". We have a better chance of this working than not working; so I keep telling myself that and I make it one more day.

On the other hand, I'm beyond excited. It still doesn't feel real at all. Jamie touches my belly every now and then and that's when it seems to sink in a little. I just need to take a deep breath and enjoy this. Easier said than done, but sure as hell worth a try.