Let the stimming begin

I had my supression check yesterday and it went great. Though I do have to say that I was nervous as hell thinking that something was going to be wrong. I don't know why I constantly focus on the posibility of a negative outcome. I guess I've just been so jaded by loss and failure that it's hard for me to think about it any other way. It's strange though, because in the last month I have focused on the positive more than the negative but when I look back all I see are my negative thoughts. Strange, but I guess it's a self-preservation mode. I know that if it doesn't work then there is always another course of action (we haven't gotten to that point). Plus I am still trying to look at the chemical pregnancy as a positive. My body was primed and ready for a pregnancy; it just didn't cooperate.

Last night was my first dose of the stims and it went well. Mixing the menopur was a bit frustrating but it all wokred out fine. I go back on Thursday for a check up so we'll see how things are progressing then.