Stress management... as if there is such a thing

We had our stress management session today and it was a bit of an eye opener. I was kind of hoping that Jamie would open up and share somethings that he had been holding back, but ti turns out he's pretty much already told me everything. I guess he just doesn't have as many words as I do.

I know he's more than stressed about all this and that it is really wearing on him as much as it is me, but I still feel like he hasn't let it all sink in yet, or maybe I feel ike that because he doesn't say much about it. I'm babbling.

He did say soemthing interesting though. When I get stressed or upset or overwhelmed he feels like he needs to fix it all (which I already knew that was how he felt) but the doctor put it in other words; she said he feels helpless. I never really saw it that way. I mean I have to talk to him about all of this because there isn't anyone else I can talk to: another revelation I had today. She also made me realize that I have no hobbies or nothing to keep myself occupied. So I went to the craft store today and got some paint. I guess I was always nervous that I would suck at it and that's why I never got into it. I've always wanted to though. I guess we'll just have to see if I have any creative sense whatsoever.

She also said soemthing else that really got me. I told her I was really (I mean really) scared of this all not working. She reminded me that my chances we a lot better for it working than not working and that the chemical pregnancy might have been my body's response to finally being un-stressed (which I have to say was defintely the case this past month). I defintely realized the importance today of not getting too stressed and overwhelmed. I'll just have to write a lot more (and hopefully paint) and find ways to get it all out without being afraid of failing.

Sounds easy right ?!?!