It's 2 boys!!!

And we couldn't be more thrilled. We both thought it would be one of each and we thought that would be the ideal situation, but this couldn't be any more ideal! I love that I know I'm having 2 sons and I love knowing that they'll grow up being best friends (hopefully). Don't get me wrong, I would have been happy with anything, but I just love it!! I feel very connected knowing that they are boys. I also feel very connected that we named them already: Jack Rory and Brayden James. The names just feel right and I know that's crazy because we don't even know them yet, but I feel like we will get to know them more just knowing who they are.

I still can't even wrap my head around the fact that I'm 17 wks pregnant. I know I still have another 20 wks or so to go, but I just don't know when it'll all sink in. I feel like now that I know who my babies are I can finally let myself get attached to them. I love them so much and I couldn't be any happier with my life right now.

Next step: Nurseries!!!

15 wks 1 day

OK so I haven't been as good with this as I promised. Things seem to be going well. I made my first baby purchase the other day, but I still don't feel ready. I mean it's pretty clear that I'm pregnant and I listen to the heartbeats everyday, I guess I just still feel so unreal about the whole thing. I can't wait to feel them move and find out if they are boys or girls, or even one of each. I'm waiting for something to make me feel a little more connected and a little less skeptical about the whole thing. I know that nothing is guaranteed, but I still want to connect with these little guys / girls and I just wish that I would let myself do it. I've told everyone at work now (even my students) and they all seem more excited than I am; well, they aren't really, but they just show their excitement a lot easier.

I', excited. I'm beyond thrilled; I can't even put it into words. I want these babies so bad and I love them so much already. I guess I just have to get a little bit better at letting myself show that.