4 weeks left

At the most!!!! That's so crazy to think that I might only have a month left! What's even crazier is thinking that I may have as few as two weeks! I can't stop thinking about what it's going to be like when they are born. I'm defintely having a c-section and y next week we'll know when it'll be scheduled - so crazy. I know that there's no way to know how things will go, but I keep running through the day they'll be born in my head and I find that I can't even sleep when I think about it. I just can't believe we are at this point. I think through the whole pregnancy I've convinced myself in a way that it isnt real that I should get too overjoyed because I was waiting for the rug to be pulled out. I have defintely enjoyed this pregnancy and I love these little guys more than anything, but it's defintely been recently, knowing that they are defintely on their way very shortly, that I get so overly excited about them being here. I still find that I can't wrap my head around the idea that in a month I will have tow children. That is just absolutely crazy to me and so overwhelming in so many ways that maybe I can't wrap my head around it because it's "unwrappable". I mean how can anyone ever prepare for a new baby and know what's to come - and then add another kid to the mix - it's impossible to know what to expect or how I'll feel. I find that I get emotional thinking about the fact that Jamie and I will be parents and I look forward to falling in love with him all over again because he's the father of my children and not just my husband and I get overjoyed knowing that I will be a mommy. What makes me even more ecstatic is knowing that the boys are doing so well. They are growing by the minute and moving around all the time and they get the hiccups and I can tell who is who in there and I just love it. It hurts and I'm tired all the time but I couldn't love these guys anymore. I just hope when they get out they are big happy healthy babies - I know the rest will fall into place.