To break or not to break... that is the question

So with our one cycle break looming, I posed the question today of whether or not we should take a cycle off. That is over course under the guise that I would actually ovulate on my own (haha... like that would ever happen). And we decided... drum roll please.... that we would just take this month off.

It isn't worth the heartache of even considering another loss. I know that even if the IVF does work, it doesn't mean that it will safeguard us from another loss, but I just feel like there will be more control (of course one of my issues that need work). So I asked Jamie what he thought and he agreed that we should take some time off. I think it will be good for us; we need some 'us' time. And I just don't know how much more my body will take.

On the 'me' front, I have defintely decided to give up the wine. I just know it is what's keeping me from even beginning to think about losing weight. The thing is, I just don't know if I can. I really don't know what keeps me from not being able to go without it. I wonder if it's the "if you tell me what not to do then I'll just do it" mentality, but ahhh who knows. In other words, the date on which wine will go RIP is still to be announced.